Today started so early. I am so tired I wish I could sleep for a week straight. I managed to work up enough energy to clean up around here a little. The front half of my house is always my priority, since more people see it if they come over. So I got my Living room and Dining room cleaned up and I finally cleaned the space behind our recliners that had all the books and clothing I threw there after our yard sale two weeks ago. It looks really nice, which Tanner confirmed. He said it smelled good. I am addicted to Orange Glow. I love the way it smells and it cleans very well. They kids wanted to go swimming so I filled up their pool in the back yard and they spent the majority of the day outside working on their tans. Emma tans so well it makes me sick. She never burns and I don't know how she does it because she is just as fair as I am.
Jeremy had to interview, I guess you would say, with OSI so he could be cleared to get his Top Secret Securtiy Clearance. They had to ask him all sorts of questions. Unbeknownst to us this involved questioning two of our neighbors. So of course when OSI came knocking on their doors they were scared out of their minds because they thought they were coming to question them about all the crap thats been going on in the neighborhood. They were very relieved to find it was just about Jeremy. The lady asked them if he drank or did drugs or beat me. If he was a good father, what he did for fun and what his hobbies were. Did he have any overseas connections or something, the list goes on and on. They really talked him up, but its easy to do that because he's such a great, low-key kinda guy. They are now expecting baked-goods as payment. We'll see. I cooked dinner and then Faith and I got a brilliant idea.
We decided that it would be theraputic if we had this Burning of the Love Letters ceremony. I had a collection of letters from a past love that I needed to let go of. I have had them in my possesion for 10 years now and it was time that I give them up. She also burnt letters that she had written while being involved with the winner. We took turns reading each one out loud and then burning them in the fire pit at her house. It was very hard to do that. I burnt every letter I had, every card and every picture I had left from our relationship. But I felt it was finally time to do it. I have no need for those things anymore. I am married to a wonderful man and it wasn't fair for me to keep those things for so long. All in all, it was very freeing, a little depressing, but freeing. Faith was a little more depressed than I because her hurt is so fresh still. I tried to tell her that she is feeling the way I felt at that time but that I have so much more to be thankful for now. Four beautiful children and a man that loves me unconditionally and that would do anything for me. She agreed but quickly reminded me that it had taken me 10 years to get rid of the memories I had had with another. She got me. I shut my mouth and let her have her moment. Things will get better for her, things always have a way of working out for the best. The whole ordeal took about 3 and a half hours to complete. And now it's done and so is this blog. Until next time...............................
Quote of the Day
To life experiences, and lessons learned. ~ Jennifer
